And lightning strikes again

Well its back to the seven of us,
we were cautiously excited for a week.
Turns out you second miscarriage does not hit as hard,
it hurts just as bad,
and you cry just as much,
but in a way it gives relief that now
there is proof of a problem.

So this week I begin testing, blood draws and ultrasounds.
Because it is amazing how much you wanted that baby
when you find out you don't
get to keep it
after all.